This post was originally posted on Facebook last July 10, 2014.
I am very much aware that I am not God. I also know for a fact that I am human, but I guess as a human being, I also have the tendency to pretend or play “God.” There are those times when I feel frustrated, only to find out that I’m trying to be on top of everything and to control what in reality can’t be controlled anymore.
I was moved to write this note because what I learned in our class a while ago struck me. I told myself that I would really write a reflection about it before going to sleep tonight. Our priest professor said “The most human experience you have in life is the most divine.” I didn’t get it at first. It sounded ironic. How can the most human experience become the most divine? Does it actually make sense?
Our professor went on and further explained that line. He said that “In your humanness, you admit that you’re human and you realize your limits as human. When you are most human, the more you recognize your need for God, that without Him, you are nothing.”
It eventually made sense to me. I believe that it’s during those rock-bottom moments of our lives when we realize that there’s no other way but up. We’re so down, so low, so depressed, so disappointed and so frustrated that the only thing left for us to do is to admit that WE DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE and so WE NEED HELP – FROM NO ONE ELSE THAN GOD.
It’s during those most humbling moments that we realize that we are indeed weak, and that we cannot do everything even if we try our best. There are really things in this life that we cannot explain or fathom. Of course, we try to understand, but we will reach that point when we’ll finally realize that our human faculties just can’t contain it. It is a mystery we do not know and so all we have to do is surrender to the One who knows everything.
It is really making perfect sense. We’re talking about humbling moments, our humanness, our most human experiences. Talk about the root word “HUM.” The Latin root “hum” means earth. It actually talks about our origin – that’s why we have the words human, humble, humane, humanity, humus, etc. It puts things in perspective – that even if we believe that we’re really great rational beings and that we are such progressive people of our generation, we must have come from somewhere. We have an origin. We were once created. I believe that it’s so beautiful to recognize that in accepting who we really are, our humble roots and all, we recognize that there’s Someone bigger than us, Someone smarter than us, Someone more powerful than us.
This Someone is not alien to those who believe. This Someone is the “Highest Good” – the “Summum Bonum” as St. Thomas Aquinas coined it. This Someone is the Source of us all – the One who created us, the Only One who makes every person both a GIFT and a MYSTERY to others.
Whether we like it or not, in the end, we will go back to where we came from. This Someone created us out of love. At the end of the day, we shall go back to Him who wants to “marry” us. After all, Marriage is about going back to your Beloved.
God is God and I am not.
I am merely human, I should say, but I am very much grateful that the one who forever calls me “Beloved” is no one else but God, and that’s more than enough.